The Fact of Existence

Shorty

2007-10-14T15:31:00.001-04:00

I'm missing my longy hair so muchie! =(

Strike 2

2007-10-10T23:13:00.000-04:00

Okay... seriously, you have to stop invading my dreamland!!! It's getting weirder and weirder each time you're in it.

Tulog

Sa pagtulog ko ikaw ang nakikita sa isipan
Puro sa 'yo lang napupunta ang bawa't kuwento

Sinungaling na panaginip
Di ka raw lumayo sa akin
O kay sarap
'Di tayo nagkahiwalay
Tuloy-tuloy pa rin
Lumilipad sa aking isip
Ayokong magising
~~Ayokong malayo sa piling mo~~

Kahit na imposible okey lang
Basta't palaging andiya't kasama ka
O kay sarap
'Di tayo nagkahiwalay

Sa tulog ko lang ba kita maaaring makamtan
'Di ba puwedeng makasama ka sa ibang paraan
~~O Diyos ko, tulungan mong maging totoo~~
~~Ang panaginip kong ito~~

-South Border

LSS

2007-10-07T23:25:00.000-04:00

My Heart Has A Mind of Its Own

People try and tell me that its crazy
You and I were never meant to be
I don't believe they know,
and even if its so
I'm fallen anyway, no matter what they say

A part of me is taking me by the hand
The world can't see, still
they can't understand
Why can't they understand

My heart has a mind of its own
Right or wrong it's gonna do
Only what it feel is true
I'll follow it where ever it goes
Anywhere it leads me to
My heart has a mind, mind of its own

Maybe we wont always be together
Maybe this'll last a thousand years
Ain't nobody knows, and even if they did
It wouldn't matter now
I'd love you anyhow

My heart knows what I'm needing
My heart knows what I'm feeling
It knows me better than I know myself
My heart knows what I'm missing
All I have to do is listen
And listen well

- Christian Bautista

Gobble Gobble

2007-10-07T23:20:00.000-04:00

Yey, no classes tomorrow! =)

I just came home from our Thanksgiving dinner at my tito's house in Mississauga. I'll upload the pictures next time.

Including the photos of my new hair cut Lol!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Bye Bye Na

2007-10-06T10:58:00.000-04:00

This is it. I've made up my mind. The shorter the better -- kase mas sulit un ibabayad ko! =)

Farewell my long hair, 'til we meet again!

Yihee!

2007-10-05T08:23:00.000-04:00

15 months… and still counting!

I love you Paolo! Forever and ever!

Just Can't

2007-10-03T14:13:00.000-04:00

I missed my English class today. I intentionally did it though, because I was so lazy to get up this morning. I had to finished my OB (Organizational Behavior) assignment last night because it was due today. I was up until 1 o'clock in the morning and my English class starts at 930am so I guess that explains a lot.

I like my OB class so much. We always have to do a group activity every meeting and it's always been fun. Like today, we have to solve a mystery through clues. I'm not gonna explain every details but basically we just have to figure out what was stolen, who stole it and how. My group thought we solved it but there was a miscommunication between us so the mystery wasn't solved.

Anyhow... my dream last night was way too weird. But I liked it though, I really do! =) As far as I remember, I had like 2 or 3 different dreams but all of them was about "Mr.K". Well, he has a part in every dream I had. Does that make sense now? The first one was the most amazing of them all. Sorry, but I'm not gonna share any details about it.

I know, I know... I'm not suppose to be feeling this but seriously, I am really trying so hard to control it. It's just a crush anyways. It's not a big deal you know? I'm pretty sure everybody has one even if they already have a man/woman in their life.

Oh shit... I have to go now. I'm working at 430 and I haven't eaten lunch yet.

Oh Yes

2007-10-02T18:24:00.000-04:00

I decided to use this account again for blogging instead of multiply. Why? I just realized that this site is more private than the other one. I mean, I'm pretty sure nobody visit this anymore. So yeah... I'm back again after 3 whole months.

I'll update this again when I have lots of time because right now, I have to do 3 assignments that are due this week.

By the way, me and Paolo will be celebrating our 15th month together on Friday. =)

Kailan Pa

2007-10-01T23:35:00.000-04:00

Bakit tuwing ikaw ay nakikita
Lumulundag ang aking puso?
Kapag ang tinig mo nama'y naririnig
Tahimik ang buong daigdig

Bawat gabi, mag-isa akong nag-iisip
Sana ay kapiling ka
Balak ko sana'y sabihing ko na
Ang aking nadarama

(Instrumental)

Kailan pa ito magagawa?
Kailan pagbibigyan ng tadhana?
Bukas ba o sa makalawa?
Kung hindi ngayon kailan pa?

Minsan tayo'y naiwan
Walang ibang kasama
Ngunit nang ikaw ay kaharap ko na
'Di ko masabing mahal kita

-Parokya ni Edgar

?

2007-06-17T01:34:00.000-04:00

Tayo kaya... may 2nd chance?

Talking to you always makes me feel sooo damn good. =)

~~I guess you'll always be the biggest part of me.~~

Oink

2007-06-14T22:28:00.000-04:00

I just had a test in my Gen Ed class this morning and that was the hardest test I've ever had in the history of my education, well... so far.

The first part of the test was multiple choice, eh okay lang nman. But I was sweating like a pig (I know, eeew!) when I was aswering the second part. Short answer question kase eh. Nakakinis, I think I missed 3 questions kase wala talaga kong idea what the hell my teacher was talking about. Or maybe, nakalimutan ko lang talaga dahil sa sobrang dami ng inaral ko. I did study naman talaga eh but still, I feel so disappointed. =(

I was really waiting for my classes to end because...

magkikita kame ni boyfriend, I love you Paolo! <3

Eleven

2007-06-05T14:16:00.000-04:00

"Hapi 11th month Pao! ikaw lang love ko. forever and ever! =) i'll see you later."
Sender: Marie

"Oh how swit.. i love u too.. Hapi 11th month.. ingat"
Sender: Paolo

Me and Paolo being silly!

Twen-teen! Lol!

2007-06-02T16:30:00.000-04:00

Shiiiiiiiiiit... bente na ko! Lol! =)

Sinurprise ako ni Paolo! Pinaiyak nya ko!

There are so many things to tell pero tinatamad na ko, next time nalang ako mag u-update.

Pictures nalang -> Prom -> Afterprom-Birthday Party

It's That Time of the Year Again

2007-05-31T16:41:00.000-04:00

Oh my, I can't believe I'm turning 20 in less than 24 hours. I feel so old, seriously.

But I thank God for giving me another year to fulfill my mission here on earth. (If there is such thing! Lol!)

>__<

2007-05-30T16:27:00.000-04:00

My friends are back from their camping trip.

SOOOBRANG NAKAKINGGIT!

Pano nman kse ko makakasama eh may school ako. I can't miss three days of school especially that midterm is coming up. =(

Complete silang grown ups, ako lang yung kulang! May pasalubong ba kayo saken, kahit dahon may lang by any chance?! Hehe, joke lang!

Oh well, I know you guys had fun! Di bale, next time nalang. =)

I Was There!

2007-05-29T00:32:00.000-04:00

We finally went to ACC (Air Canada Centre) to watch WWE Raw!

I'm telling you right now, it was hella fun! We were both screaming our lungs out all throughout the show. Well actually, it was just me! Lol! Pero minsan, napapasigaw din sha.

Before the show started, we were both super excited. Then nung nagstart na, the smile on may face was really really huge! Ahaha! Try to imagine my face with a suuuper wide smile. Ganon ako na-excite! Ang saya talaga, promise! It was one of a kind experience for me. I took a lot of video clips from my phone. I'll try to upload them pag naayos ko na. I mean, pag nagawa ko sha into one long video. Ang panget naman kse if I will upload them one by one. Magmumuka ng youtube 'tong site ko! Lol! Also, I'll upload the pictures by tomorrow siguro. Ay, eto pa pla nkakatawa. I brought my camera with me but the thing is, that freakin' camera of ours sucks. Sobrang naiinggit kme dun sa mga katabi nmen kse un zoom ng camera nila sobrang okay pero yun samin, nako! parang dapat ndi nalang kme nag take ng pictures. =( Same thing with my camera phone, ndi talga sha good quality. So I promise myself na ang susunod kong bibilin eh digi cam!

Pictures are here and here!

We also bought glow sticks from one of the booths dun ACC kaya lang wala nman ung DX!

List of wrestlers I remember that we saw during the show:

John Cena

Great Khali

Vince McMahon

Bobby Lashley

Batista (oh my God!)

Chris Benoit

Finley and Hornswoggle

Boogeyman and his little one

Kane

Doink

Eugene (he was so cute!)

Shane McMahon

The Hardys

Johnny Nitro

RVD

Randy "RKO" Orton

Umaga

Divas

I hope to see them again soon! XD

Yo Momma!

2007-05-24T21:48:00.000-04:00

Happy birthday to my oh so beautiful mom!

I love you! ^___^

We have a surprise party for you on Saturday. Yay! I can't wait!!!

Hiling

2007-05-23T22:07:00.000-04:00

Nag-iisang pag-ibig ang nais makamit
Yun ay ikaw
Nag-iisang pangako na di magbabago
Para sa ‘yo

San ka man ay sana’y maalala mo
Kailan man asahan, di magkalayo

Tanging ikaw lamang ang aking iibigin
Walang ibang hiling kundi ang yakap mo’t halik

Hindi malilimutan, mga araw natin
Kay sarap balikan
At lagi mong isipin, walang ibang mahal
Kundi ikaw

Malayo ka man ay sana’y maalala mo
Kailan man pangako, di magkalayo

Tanging ikaw lamang ang aking iibigin

- Jay-R Siaboc

A-B-C ... Z-Y-X ...

2007-05-22T23:32:00.000-04:00

I had sooo much FUN today! Really! Though I feel a little guilty for lying about this whole thing, but it's all good. I'm not saying that lying is good, I just don't want to get in trouble or something!

Oh, I just realize some things. Geez... this is so random! Lol! :
- I still am a loser when it comes to playing soccer. Well, when I'm playing it with "SG". Maybe I have a chance of winning if it was somebody else!
- "SG" likes/loves to do things that annoys me.
- It will take me almost an hour to say the alphabet backwards!
- I smell coffee from head to toe. (That is kinda exaggerated but when I was on the bus, I can smell my hair and jacket!)
- Playing soccer made my legs and back hurt even more. =(
- A pig can evolve into a duck. This evolution only works for "SG". Lol! XD
- Don't talk about something you can't really explain well.
- Raccoons are scary. Very scary.
- Honestly speaking, doing those dance doesn't make you hot. But it's cute though!
- I never knew that you are such a pervert!!!

That's all I can think of right now. For those who read my blog, I don't expect you to understand 'cause you really wont. Hehe! Oh well, whatever! This is my blog so deal with it. =)

"SG": I hope you had fun too. I still haven't given you your Crispy Chicken Meal! Maybe some other time! =D

Mr.Spidey

2007-05-10T17:03:00.000-04:00

I'm going to watch Spider Man 3 tomorrow with Paolo and friends.

I am so excited!

IMAX here we come! Lol! XD

Oh by the way... it's my fourth day in school today. I had two classes and they were both 3 hours. Putang ina, ansaket sa pwet! (I apologize for the language! Lol!)

edit> IMAX sucks. Sumaket lang ulo ko. I would rather watch a movie in a regular theatre than pay extra bucks for an extended screen. I don't even have hearing problems so I don't need a better sound system either. Geez! :( The movie was good though, but I'm not that satisfied with the ending.

Fresh

2007-05-09T21:06:00.000-04:00

Sorry for not updating my site for the last couple of weeks. Nakakatamad kase and as if naman na may nagbabasa nito diba?

So what happened to me these past few weeks...

Saturday, May 5th: It's our 10 month anniversary! But we didn't even see or spend time together though. =( How sad is that eh? He slept over at his friend's house on Friday night kase. He told me that they went to bed at 4 o'clock in the morning na daw then they had to wake up so early on Saturday morning just to play basketball. He was so tired and slept all day when he got home. Ako naman, I had work that day so hindi nga talaga kme nagkita.

Sunday, May 6th: We went to church to attend mass with my parents. Then we went to Staples to buy some school stuffs. We had lunch at Pho then we went home na, nagstay sha dito sa house until 9pm ata.

Monday, May 7th: First day of school. Yes, you heard it right... I'm going to school again. Finally, I'm in college! It was scary because I don't know anybody there and I'm not familiar with the school pa. I've been there na before, siguro twice pa lang but I was with my sister though, so okay lang. But this time, I'm all by myself. I feel so lonely. ='(

Tuesday, May 8th: Second day. I had a hard time in finding my freakin' classroom! I was walking back and forth for like 10 minutes and asked 4 or 5 people before I found the room. And guess what? I am the ONLY Filipino in this class. Social life = 0%

Wednesday, May 9th: Third day. Yung professor ko sa Marketing class, nakakatakot.

I guess going to college is really not that fun.

Tadah!

2007-04-22T20:51:00.000-04:00

I can't believe I had work today after 2 months! I removed my Sunday availability a couple of months ago so I can start going to church again. I was so desperate to earn more money for my next pay check that's why I took Jemay's shift. I'm telling you, going to college in this country is freakin' expensive! You'll spend hundrer of dollars just for your books. But having a loan for your tuition fee is really a big help though, especially to those people who are eager to go to school but doesn't have the money to begin with. I know that my parents are the one who are suppose to be responsible for all of these but I decided to be independent 'cause if you guys have a brother like mine, you have no other choice but to work your ass off so you can support your own needs in life! Okay... here I go again, talking shit about my brother.

Anyhoo... I was surprised that Paolo picked me up at work today. My face went like this -> . Hehe! I really had no idea that he'll do that. Hannah just told me that he was waiting in the lobby. So I called my dad right away to tell him not to pick me up anymore. Thank you Paolo for doing that! Promise, kinilig ako! I'll see you on Tuesday my dear!

Paolo + Marie = ♥

2007-04-17T14:32:00.001-04:00

Random pictures with my love! Lol! c:

Night mode = Not Activated! Lol!

We are such posers!

Bubble tea!

Chester Day!

What the hell am I doing?!

Kara's 18th birthday

This is the most random pic ever! Lmao! XD

Hey you!

Take Me Back to Dreamland!

2007-04-15T16:04:00.000-04:00

I just had the weirdest dream ever last night. But I really liked it! =)

I was in a school daw (I don't even know if that school even exist), and I was so in love with a guy named Bright. This is the weird part... he's black! But definitely a cute one. I'm not being racist here okay? I actually have a crush on one of my classmates, Papa Jesse as what I call him, when I was still in high school and he's black. And super H-O-T. I also adore Pharrell Williams. Oh yes I do! =P

So yeah... about my dream. We like each other daw! As in we were super sweet and all. But he's not my boyriend though, and obviously I'm not his girl. There was something about a concert pa nga eh, that we were suppose to attend to but my freakin' phone rang. And take a wild guess who it is?! My real world boyfriend (Paolo) called me! Aaaaaaargh! What a party pooper. =( I'm really glad he doesn't know this blog! Hehe! But don't worry, you're still my one and only love! <3

Kara 18th Birthday

2007-04-14T14:57:00.000-04:00

Sorry for the late update!

We had sooo much fun at the party! Happy birthday Kara! We love you so muchie!

Marlon, Niel, Kara, Jc, Jim

Marlon,Jc, Niel,Jim

Me and Rollen! =)

Jhen, Veah, Nelson's head, Czarina

Groupies!

Me and the birthday girl!

Groupies!

Me and Watokwatokwatokwatokwa... =)

Me and Cori

Grown ups! Lol!

Math class reunion!

Me and Czarina

Groupies!

Me, Cori and Jhen

Grown ups and the birthday girl!

Oh and one more thing! A surprise performance for the birthday girl. This is the wackiest video clip ever! Damn, I wish I have a better camera phone! =P

Lando

2007-04-11T01:22:00.000-04:00

Wag kang mabahala may nagbabantay sa dilim
Nakaabang sa sulok at may hawak na patalim
Di ka hahayaan na muli pang masaktan
Wag ka nang matakot sa dilim

Ito ay kwentong hango na galing sa dalawang taong
Nagmamahalan ng tunay ang ngala’y Elsa at Lando
At kahit parang pagkakataon ay nakakandado
Dahil magkalayo ang uri ng buhay ang estado
Ng buhay ni Lando ay di nalalayo sa marami
Sinunog ng araw ang kulay ng balat at marami
Ng galon ng pawis ang kanyang naidilig sa lupa
Upang ang gutom ay di na masuklian pa ng luha
Habang ang babaeng kanyang minamahal ay sagana
Ngunit kabilang sa pamilya na di alintanang
Makipagkapwa-tao sa mga tulad niyang dukha
Gayon pa ma’y patuloy ang pagmamahal na pinula ng pagibig

Kahit na ano pang bagay ang pilit na ihadlang
Sino man ay walang makakapigil sa paghakbang
Ng mga paa na ang nais ay marating ang ligaya
Niyayang magtanan di nag-atubili na sumama
Hawak ang pangarap at pangako sa isa’t isa
Nagpakalayo-layo di namuhay na may kaba
Dahil alam nila na sa bawa’t isa’y nakalaan
At ang pagmamahalan tangi nilang sinasandalan
Wala ng ibang bagay pa silang mahihiling
Kundi isang pamilya sa loob ng apat na dingding
At isang bubong na maaaring tawaging tahanan
Bakit may pangit na kabanatang kailangang daanan pa

Isang gabi na Huwebes lumubog na ang araw
Doon tayo magkita pasalubong ko’y siopao
Upang ating paghatian pagdating ng hapunan
Meron palang nakaabang sa amin na kamalasan
Eskinita sa Ermita may sumaksak kay Elsa
Sa tagiliran isang makalawang na lanseta
Ang gamit upang makuha lang ang kanyang pitaka
Kami’y mahirap lamang bakit di na siya naawa
Hindi ko naabutang buhay ang aking mahal
At hanggang sa huling hantungan ay nagdarasal
Bakit po bakit po ang laging lumalabas
Sa ‘king bibig palaboy-laboy ni walang landas
Akong sinusunod baliw sa mata ng marami
Siguro nga di ko na kilala aking sarili
Pangala’y taong grasa may patalim na gamit
At ang tanging alam ay isang malungkot na awit
At ang sabi…

Wag ka nang matakot sa dilim…

- Gloc 9

* I am really not a fan of rap music but I just can't get enough of this song. I've been listening to this song everyday and I don't even why! It's really a good one, you should check it out! Lol! c: (Props to youtube for the video!)

Holy shit... why am I still awake?!

Disgust

2007-04-10T15:08:00.000-04:00

He's the most selfish, rude, arrogant, heartless person I've ever known.

I feel like throwing up everytime I see his face.

I hate him. I hate him. I HATE HIM.

Here By Me

2007-04-04T13:20:00.001-04:00

I hope you're doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can' take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you're not here
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
Everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

- 3 Doors Down

Oh Well...

2007-04-01T00:21:00.000-04:00

I haven't seen you in four days.

We don't even talk that much on the phone.

It's fuckin' killing me. =(

Haaay... if you could only do that one simple thing, I'm gonna be the happiest girl alive.

Grad Photos

2007-03-30T13:27:00.001-04:00

Yey! I finally got my grad photos. =)

WMAO

2007-03-28T20:53:00.001-04:00

I've been working my ass off lately. I know, I know... more money for "shopping" as what my manager told me but I'm freakin' tired from all this shifts. Haaay... earning money was never been easy. =(

My shifts this week:
Monday - 4pm to 10pm (Drive-thru)
Wednesday - 8am to 2pm (Drive-thru)
Thursday - 8am to 2pm (Drive-thru) and 5pm to 8pm (Training)
Saturday - 7am to 3pm (Drive-thru)

Next week:
Monday - 5pm to 8pm (Training)
Tuesday - I am not scheduled for this day but I'm pretty sure they will ask me to come. (Training)
Wednesday - 430pm to 730pm (Training)
Saturday - 8am to 4pm (Drive-thru)

Thank God it's pay day tomorrow.
Geez, I have bills to pay!

Happy-ness!

2007-03-21T23:39:00.000-04:00

I just had a very looong conversation through chat with my "college bestfriend" (lol!) , Rayie for the last 2 hours. I miss that girl so much and it made me think about the good times we had when I was still in the Philippines! =)

Hay nako Rayie, pag ako umuwi dyan... tayong dalawa ang mag s-slow motion. Okay?!

Love yah! Mwah! XD

And I also had a very weird conversation with Paolo over the phone. We never talked that way kase. We were both jolly and full of energy today. But the phone call must come to an end 'cause he still have to wake up early tomorrow for school. And his eye bags will get bigger daw, my God!

Woot! Woot!

2007-03-20T10:04:00.000-04:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAOLO!!!

Just Like That

2007-03-19T15:07:00.001-04:00

I was having my breakfast this morning while watching Sana Maulit Muli when the phone rang... it was my sister.

Pam: "Marie, anong ginagawa mo?"
Me: "Kumakain, baket?"
Pam: "Punta ka dito sa STC, may nakita akong sapatos. Pero ndi ko pa binibili. Papakita ko muna sayo."
(Just to let you know, STC is a mall and it's like 30-45 mins. travel from our house going there.)
Me: "Ngayon na? Eh ndi pa ko naliligo."
Pam: "Wag ka na maligo. Baka may bumili na nung sapatos, last na kse yun."
Me: "Eh di itago mo!"
Pam: Di pwede, andito kse yung mga nagaayos eh. Baka batukan pa ko! Dalian mo, antayin kita ha. Tawagan mo nalang ako pag andito ka na."
Me: "Okay. Bye."

After changing my clothes without taking a shower, (I know, it's gross! Lol!) I took the 11:24am bus. When I saw my sister at the mall, we went straight to Wal-mart. We bought 3 pairs of shoes in less than 30 mins. Then we went to Payless after. We bought another pair of shoes there.

All I wanted to say is I just can't believe that we bought 4 pairs of shoes in less than an hour! And it was sooo much fun! =D

Happy Birthday Dear Paolo...

2007-03-18T22:47:00.000-04:00

Warning: This is a very cheezy video clip so just deal with it, okay? Nakikitingin ka lang, hehe! =)

After hearing mass, we had our lunch at Tako Sushi. Advance date namin ni Paolo before his birthday on Tuesday. He might invite his friends at his house on that day kasi so I decided to take him on a lunch date today. Medyo malayo yung place from the station we took our bus but it was worth it naman because sobrang busog kame. Lol!

I took that clip when we were having our appetizers pa lang. I have no time to take another one when our main courses arrived. We were so busy eating na kase.

After lunch, we went to STC to buy his little sister Pia a birthday gift. They both have the same birthday kase. We bought a new game for their game cube. Yung gift ko naman for him, sabi ko sa Tuesday na.

Pissed

2007-03-16T00:24:00.000-04:00

The meeting was cancelled today. And my freakin' manager didn't even bother to tell me before 5pm so I can come to my regular shift which starts at 430pm. I was 30 minutes late and it's not even my fault. Damn! =(

I was suppose to work tomorrow but I gave my shift to Hanna because she wanted more hours. Since it was a Friday shift, I am willing to give it away because I really don't want to work on Fridays especially at night. I'm telling you, it's always been busy. Super busy. Then my manager asked me about it a while ago and told me that Hanna is working on that day. I'm like, "But she told me she's not working." I mean, why would I give it to her in the first place if I know that she got a shift right?! Then the freakin' fat guy came in to the picture and said that make sure I or WE double check our schedules first before we switch shifts with one another blah blah... Fuck that, whatever!

I'm goin' to bed.

Not Satisfied

2007-03-14T23:45:00.000-04:00

I got a new layout again! The other one was kind of plain kase, and the title doesn't appear on my post so I changed it nalang. I like this one better except for this part...
<------------ I don't know kung anong itatawag ko dyan, basta I don't like.

Today was suppose to be Ica Day (again). You might be wondering what the hell is "Ica Day". Well just to make it short, we were suppose to go at Ica's place (Mississauga), but unfortunately, a lot of people didn't make it. Few of them still went there and I think they had fun naman.

My window shift tomorrow was change into a meeting. No, not a Crew Trainer Meeting but a "Team Leader Meeting". When I heard it from Veah, at first I was like "Team leader? Eh hindi naman tayo team leader ha?!" Then she was like "Eh alam mo na..." Oh my God... Did I just got promoted for the second time? I'm not sure though. But why would my manager asked me to attend that meeting if I'm not one diba? Hay... whatever. I'm gonna find out nalang bukas. Six days nalang birthday na ni Paolo. Wala lang, ako yung nae-excite para sakanya. Lol! =D

Umaasa Lang Sa'yo

2007-03-13T12:41:00.000-04:00

I AM SOOO IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG RIGHT NOW! =D I'M REALLY GLAD I FINALLY FOUND IT!

Di ko alam ang nararamdaman
Ng mawala ka at ako'y nagiisa
Hanggang ngayon 'di ka nawawala
Dito sa isip ko ika'y mahalaga

Ngunit pano na lang ako
Kung mawawalay ka lang
Dinggin mo ako
Nagsusumamo sa iyo

Muli mong pagbigyan ang puso kong ito
Naghihintay na maalala mo
Para lang sa'yo ang pagibig ko
Nasan ka man, sana ay maramdaman
Ako'y nandirito at umaasa lang sa'yo

Kahit saan ako mapunta
Ala-ala mo'y hindi nawawala
Nais ko man, ika'y mahagkan
Sa panaginip ko na lang malalaman

Umaasa lang sa'yo

-Umaasa Lang Sa'yo, 6 Part Invention

Go Away

2007-03-08T23:09:00.000-05:00

I'm not feeling good today and I don't even know why.

I feel so... sad for no reason at all.

I hate this. I HATE IT.

='c

Tonight I Can Write The Saddest Lines

2007-03-08T13:55:00.001-05:00

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write for example, “The night is shattered
And the blue stars shiver in the distance.”

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.
To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep her.

The night is shattered and she is not with me.
This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another’s. She will be another’s. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
And these the last verses that I write to her.

by Pablo Neruda

8th Month

2007-03-05T14:01:00.000-05:00

Happy 8th month Paolo!

I love you, love you, love you! =)

Part II

2007-03-04T22:57:00.000-05:00

We had F-U-N again today.

This one is waaay much better that the others! =)

I feel so loved.

F-U-N

2007-03-02T11:47:00.000-05:00

I had F-U-N today! =D

Thank you for those amazing hours.

I love you.

One Snowy Afternoon...

2007-03-01T15:54:00.000-05:00

So my manager was right, there is a snow storm today. I took these photos from the window in our room. Hehe, silly me! c:

Nasayang na naman ang chance to be with each other. I was wearing my pants already, sweater nalang ang kulang when Paolo called. He told me not to go anymore because of the storm nga. Then when I looked outside the window, the streets were covered with snow na.

I miss Paolo :c

Two-Faced

2007-03-01T00:55:00.000-05:00

Randy is sooo gwapo XD *blush* ...

... and I'm sooo tired :c .

Yey, new layout! But editing is still going on!

One last thing... my brother is snoring like a mad man again! Lol! ^___^

Alone In The Dark

2007-02-27T01:51:00.001-05:00

It's almost 2 o'clock in the morning and I'm still wide awake. I don't even know why I can't sleep when I was so freakin' tired from work. Tomorrow will be the last day of my training, or I probably should say later! Then I have another shift on Wednesday from 4pm to 10pm.

I'm starting to get bored with this "early vacation" I'm having. All I do is wake up late - eat - go to work or spend time with Paolo or chill with my friends (not even!) - eat again - do some chores - eat again - sleep. Haaay... I want to do something new naman. Like... hehe, I don't even know kung ano. I miss going to school, doing school work, hanging out with my friends like I used to, spending a lot of time with Paolo and a lot more. =(

Before I go to bed, let me just say this... my brother is snoring like a mad man! Haha! =p

Just Like That

2007-02-26T13:52:00.000-05:00

It was just a simple message but it really made me smile. That person never really fails when it comes to that.

I miss you so much. I know that you're already aware of that but I just want to remind you again in case you forgot.

A promise is a promise. I'll come to you... just be patient and wait for me. I know 3 days won't be enough but I'll assure you that I will make it feel like it's 3 years.

Stay happy and I will too!

* This is a message for someone who I only know. So if you think you know that person... well I'm telling you right now... think again because YOU HAVE NO IDEA! Haha! (anlabo nun!)

Another Used To Be

2007-02-25T21:00:00.001-05:00

Hey guys, check this out! -> chescamarie.multiply.com
Kaya lang, for contacts only eh. So if you want to see my site, mag member ka muna then add me up! Haha! =) There's another but pa pala! I can only accept your invitation if we know each other personally. Sorry, I'm a very private person. Lol!

I know, I haven't been updating this blog for like ages! Actually, I like this site much better than multiply when it comes to blogging. Kase sa multiply, automatic na ini-inform yung mga contacts mo if there's something new sa site mo. Pero dito, pag napagtripan lang tignan ng mga ka-link exchange mo yung site mo, chaka lang nila malalaman na you have a new update. Hehe! That's the only part of Multiply I hate, yung about sa blog nga but the rest... I'm loooving it! I'm going to use that site officially (and hopefully the last one) for my photos/videos/music/etc.

Anyways... I never had a post about Christmas and New Year. Haha, I know... that was like 2 months ago pero whatever, gusto ko pa rin i-post.

Chrisrtmas - I was sick (flu). Really, really sick. It was terrible. May fever ako while I was preparing our Noche Buena with my dad. It was the worst Christmas feeling ever!

New Year - It was the same as last year... BORING! Haha! =) But I was talking to Paolo nung nag 12 o'clock -- this was only the fun part of the night. Nasanay lang siguro talaga ko magspend ng New Year sa Philippines. Nakakamiss yung noise and paputok!

What's new with me this 2007? Well, I just finish high school! =) I'm not going to school until May. I'm planning to go to college on summer na kase. This is like an early vacation for me. Wala akong ginagawa ngayon kundi magpataba and magtrabaho. I need to save money for all my college expenses kase. Hopefully, I would be able to get in at Centennial College.

Sige na, I'm hungry na ulet! Later! ^_____^

Woot! Woot!

2006-12-12T22:23:00.000-05:00

Happy 19th Birthday Veah! Welcome to the club! Yay! :D

And Happy Birthday kay Jayson!

(If you want to see more pictures from Veah's party, go to my photobucket account. You guys already know what the username and password is. Thanks!)

No Classes!

2006-12-08T21:46:00.000-05:00

The day I've been waiting for has finally come. It's our P.D. Day so that means there's no school today! Yay! =)

This day is all about Paolo, ahehe! I really had fun today. We just spent the whole day together which we haven't done for a very long time. So yeah... everything was perfect. I was at there house at exactly 10am. We finally watched Brokeback Mountain and it's a nasty movie! (But I'm not saying that I'm against gay people okay? I have gay friends and I love them! They have there own little ways to entertain people and they are so fun to be with.) I can't help but smile everytime I think about what happened today. Ahehe, parang bumalik yung kilig feeling nung crush ko palang sha. Lol.! It may sound cheezy but it's true! I'm just sooo in love right now and you people have nothing else to do but to deal with it. =)

Later!

Paparapapap... I'm Lovin' It!

2006-12-06T00:44:00.000-05:00

I just got home from the McDonald's Christmas Party. Yo, that party was live! I've never been to a party like that in my whole life. =) I want to do that again, lol! I can't wait for the prom and then we can all go clubbing after. That would be really fun, I swear!

Anyhoo... it's the 5th day of the month again and it only means one thing -- it's our 5th month together! But we didn't spend much time together today because of the party nga. Like, I had to go home right away after school 'cause I had to change my clothes and all. It was really sad, tapos nasungitan ko pa sha kanina. And he was like saying sorry because we missed the bus though it's not really his fault and that made the situation even more complicated. Ah basta... it wasn't a good day for the both of us. But I was really touched by the card that he gave me and that made me love him even more, hehe! =)

Happy 5th month Pao! Love you sooo much! I can't wait 'til Friday comes so we can spend the whole day together! Mwah!

*I'll try to post some pictures from the party if I have time, or you can just check my photobucket account.

Gusto Na Kitang Makita

2006-11-26T18:17:00.000-05:00

This song is for you... you know who you are! =D

Parang ang bagal ng takbo ng panahon pag wala ka
Alam kong walang dapat sisihin na ako’y
Nandito at nandiyan ka

Pero dahil malayo ka
Ako’y nalulungkot na

Gusto na kitang makita
(Kita kita sa mata)
Gusto na kitang makasama
(Magsama tayong dalawa)

Pininta mong larawan ko
Ang mga una kong nakikita sa umaga
Pagbangon sa kama siguradong
Ang araw ay may bagong pag-asa

- Session Road

911

2006-11-19T21:42:00.000-05:00

Nakakainis... nakakainis talaga...

Aaaaaaaaaaah! Naiinis talaga ko...

** dear... kailangan ko ng matinong kausap... ='(

Talaga Naman Oh!

2006-11-18T15:35:00.001-05:00

"Tinatamad ako eh."

WHAT A F*CKING LAME EXCUSE!!! :(

All I ever wanted is to go home, have some rest and spend time with the most important person in my life but obviously, it was ONLY ME who wanted that and NOT HIM.

After thinking about him all night while I'm in the party because he's not with me and I didn't see him the whole day, the last thing that I want to hear from him when I asked him to come to my house is "Tinatamad ako eh."

Oh man, he can really be sooo insensitive sometimes!

Ika - apat

2006-11-05T21:09:00.000-05:00

4 months na! =)

Sore All Over!

2006-10-31T22:13:00.000-05:00

Just to let you know that I've been working my ass off since Saturday. I'm so fuckin' tired, it's not even funny! :( And hopefully, tomorrow would be the last day. Oh please! 'Cause I've been working 5 straight days! I don't even have time to do my homeworks anymore. I mean, who would want to do their homeworks when you're so tired from work already? My body needs some rest too, you know?!

Oh by the way... Happy Halloween everyone! I missed trick or treating this year. There are two reasons why: 1) Reggie is not here, he's in the Philippines right now so we don't have a kid to go with us. 2) Even if Reggie is here, I can't go with them because I had work today.

McDonald's were so busy today. You people should be trick or treating outside! You're not supposed to be eating at McDonald's. Lol.! =) And we don't have enough crew today so we kinda had a hard time. I think there were 3 to 5 people who didn't show up. I shouldn't be working today either. I just got a phone call last night from my manager. My stupid brother didn't tell her that I am sleeping already, though I'm really not, just to avoid the freakin' call.

The only best thing that happened to me today was I got the highest mark in my Math class! I'm sooo happy about it. =) Have a good night everyone!

Beleive It or Not

2006-10-23T23:43:00.000-04:00

To create a better future, you must use your past connections. Call an old friend.

I really don't beleive to those horoscopes that you can find in a newspaper, magazine or even on the internet. But that one up there really caught my attention! Lol.! =) But whether it's true or not, I hope that yung friend na tinawagan ko last night eh may connection nga sa future ko.

Forgotten?

2006-10-12T12:02:00.000-04:00

After talking about his life for the whole day, he didn't even mention a thing about what happened to us a while ago! I am so freakin' mad right now it's not even funny!

Is he really insensitive or he just don't know how to open up when it comes to our relationship? That most of the time I can't avoid myself thinking that I'm the only one who cares about this whole thing! Why do I always feel I'm the one who is supposed to make the first move so everything will be okay? When will he learn? I'm a person with a lot of patience, you know? But sometimes... I just want to give up because things are not happening the way they should be. Which gives you a lot of disappointment, and in the end you still can't do anything about it... because love gets in the way.

3 Months And Still Counting...

2006-10-05T20:42:00.000-04:00

Happy 3rd month my ugly-free ear lobe-bald-sexy monster! Lol.! ;D

Love you so muchie! Mwah!

Fake!

2006-10-04T23:39:00.000-04:00

Haaay nako... sudden changes! Here we go again! =(

We were doing great before a friend's birthday party. I mean, same old kulitan and all. But I noticed something about him since Monday pa, sobrang snob! Parang bigla nalang nagkaron ng distance between us. Hindi naman sa nag-fe-feeling, okay?! But I could be right, siguro mga 60-40 chances.

Tomorrow, my seatmate will be absent. If something I expect don't happen sa 3rd period, that means I'm right -- he's trying to avoid me, hah! And that's not good.

Nasaan Ka Na? ='(

2006-09-23T21:46:00.000-04:00

Walang tigil ang mga luha sa pagpatak simula pa kagabi. Pero hangang ngayon, naguunahan pa rin silang lumabas mula sa mga matang pagod na sa kakaiyak.

Bakit parang AKO lang ang nag-aalala? Bakit parang AKO lang ang may pakialam sa lahat ng nangyayari? Bakit parang AKO lang ang nasasaktan? Bakit parang lagi nalang AKO, at walang SIYA?!

Napakahirap sagutin ng mga tanong na yan kung ang kinakausap mo ay walang ginawa kundi ang manahimik.

Makakaya ko ba kung iiwanan ko siya ng kahit sandali? Wala ba kong pagsisisi na mararamdaman sa bandang huli? Hindi ba ko ang unang lalapit at magsasabing "hindi ko na kaya"?

Pero masama bang magpahinga kung talagang sobrang pagod ka na?!

No More Drama!

2006-09-05T22:37:00.000-04:00

baby, i'm-a want you
baby, i'm-a need you
you're the only one i care enough to hurt about
maybe i'm-a crazy
but i just can't live without...

your lovin' and affection
givin' me direction
like a guiding light to help me through a darkest hour
lately i'm a-prayin'
that you'll always be a-stayin' beside me

used to be my life was just emotions passing by
feeling all the while and never really knowing why...

lately i'm a-prayin'
that you'll always be a-stayin' beside me

used to be my life was just emotions passing by
then you came along and made me laugh
and made me cry...
you taught me why...

baby, i'm-a want you
baby, i'm-a need you

oh, it took so long to find you, baby
baby, i'm-a want you
baby, i'm-a need you

- baby i'm a want you, bread

** Happy 2nd month Paolo! No more dramas from now on. Just you sexy! Ikaw lang love ko at wala ng iba pa. I love you kalbo! c:

Back To School

2006-09-04T22:51:00.000-04:00

Went to Eatons Center with Kara, Loise and Kate today. Last minute shopping of school supplies for tomorrow. Excited na ko! Ahaha, ano ba un?! ;D Ewan ko ba... sobrang gusto ko na pumasok. Nakakatamad din kse noh, wala ng mapuntahan and puro nalang work!

And we even saw Jc, Jim and Neil sa mall. Medyo maraming tao kse long weekend nga eh, and I think yun Eatons lan din ang open na mall na pede namin mapuntahan.

I bought something din pala for Paolo. It's our 2nd month na kse tomorrow. Hihi! ;D

I'll try to go to sleep early tonight. Kasi start na naman ng maagang pag gising simula bukas! Sh*t... un ang pinaka panget na part sa lahat.

It's Now or Never!

2006-08-29T20:26:00.000-04:00

Yesterday:
I woke up at 730 in the morning just to go to Paolo's place and continue my sleep there. Weird eh? It was supposed to be a surprise but I'm to scared na baka mag screw up yun plano ko. Basta, it was a long story and so funny! I don't want to ring their doorbell 'cause I might wake her sisters up. So nagpunta ko dun sa may gilid, dun sa window ng room niya and started calling his name para buksan yun door. Eh mataas pala yun window, so it's impossible na marinig niya ko, kaya kinatok ko nalang. Akala niya daw may tao sa door niya, eh sa window pala! Ahaha! When he opened the door, his eyes were so red, bagong gising eh! After letting me in, natulog na ulet kami. =)

Then nung hapon, we went to Mark's place because it was his birthday.

Happy Birthday Kuya Mark! =)

Today:
I went out with my sister. We bought some stuffs for school. Next week na kasi yung start ng classes. Excited na ko! Sooobrang gusto ko na bumalik ng school. Laugh trip kami ng ate ko ngaun, as in! Lalo na sa "Temptation Island". Ahaha! =D

Gusto ko na ulet makita si Paolo. Ngayon na!

2006-08-25T23:28:00.000-04:00

Okay na... magiging okay na lahat.

Ikaw lang Paolo... ikaw lang.

Confusion

2006-08-21T23:29:00.000-04:00

Just when you realize that what you have right now is all you want, here comes the past haunting you again... and again... and again. No matter how fast you run just to get away from the past, leaving you alone is the last thing the past could possibly do. Or maybe this chaos is all in your head. You're the one who's making all the things so complicated. You know that the past is already happy and contented. And you should feel the same way about now.

P.S. No comment please. ='(

I Can't Wait For The Next One!

2006-08-05T22:26:00.000-04:00

It's August 5... a month has passed since July 5! Yay!

Happy 1st month Paolo! Love you sexy! ;D

Since I have work today, we just watched John Tucker Must Die at Eglinton Town Centre. It was so funny! You guys should watch it! Then we got ourselves something to eat sa Wendy's and after that sumakay na ng bus going to Mcdonalds. Hindi na sha bumaba ng bus kase sayang sa ticket diba?

May pagka cheesy din pala 'tong si Paolo enoh? Feeling ko, idea ng ate nya yun eh! Well, ndi lang feeling -- sure ako! Ahaha! He got me something for our first month. Buti pa sha, ako wala man lan nabigay. I'll make it up to you nalang next month. I'm still waiting for my next pay cheque pa kase! But thanks a lot! Sobrang na-appreciate ko. Nadagdagan ulet un love ko syo! Ahaha!

I am sooo tired. I have to work again tomorrow. From 7 in the morning until 2pm. Haay... nakakapagod! After ko magbasa, I'm going to sleep na. Nite!

$___$

2006-07-29T23:35:00.000-04:00

Paolo and I went shopping at Yorkdale today! First time kong mag shopping with a guy. Ahehe! Okay nman eh. I really enjoyed it. We were supposed to go to my house after sa mall since ayaw nya pang umuwi. But nung tumawag ao sa bahay to ask kung sino yun andun, my mom told me na the whole house is a mess kasi nagluluto daw sha. So we have no choice but to stay in his house. His dad went to party so mga kapatid nya lang yun andun. Mga past 9 na 'ata ao nakauwi.

Err... ndi ko sasabihin dito pero...

Nakakainlab naman si Paolo! ♥ Yay! ;D

Super!

2006-07-24T19:52:00.000-04:00

I can't wait 'til my summer school is over! 2 days left and we're free! Then I'll be going back to work na 'cause I really need some money. We had our last test today. I think I did great. But I'm not expecting anything kse that last time na akala kong I did good in my test, I got a low mark. So to avoid disappointment, better not to expect nalang. Bahala na si Batman! Tomorrow is a review day for the exam kase sa Wednesday na yun. Oh well, good luck nalang!

Paolo! Nadagdagan yun love ko syo today. May kinuwento saken si Czarina this morning. Kinilig nman ao dun! Oo na, I'm taken already! Taken by you! Love kita, suuuper! I'll see you on Wednesday my dear.

Ano kayang food? I'm hungry... again!

♥

2006-07-19T22:08:00.000-04:00

i don't say it as often as i should
but i really want it to be heard
when i say i love you that's for good
you have my word
that day after day after all
i will always be true
that's a promise i make to you

- a promise i make, dakota moon

** It's been 2 weeks and I'm having so much fun! Super love kita Pao! *mwah*

So Much In Love

2006-07-13T23:13:00.000-04:00

so, i say i love you
i don’t wanna wait forever
just to say, i need you
doesn’t even have to matter
if it really matter anything to you

- wait forever, gary v.

Sana Maulit Muli

2006-07-13T16:59:00.000-04:00

sana maulit muli, ang mga oras nating nakaraan

bakit nagkaganito, naglaho na ba ang pag-ibig mo

sana maulit muli, sana'y bigyan ng pansin ang himig ko

kahapon bukas ngayon, tanging wala ng ibang mahal

kung kaya kong umiwas na, di na sana aasa pa

kung kaya kong iwanan ka, di na sana lalapit pa

kung kaya ko sana

ibalik ang kahapon, sandaling di mapapantayan

huwag sana nating itapon, pagmamahal na tapat

kung ako'y nagkamali minsan, di na ba mapagbibigyan

o giliw, dinggin mo ang nais ko

kung kaya kong umiwas na, di na sana aasa pa

kung kaya kong iwanan ka, di na sana lalapit pa

kung kaya ko sana

ito ang tanging nais ko, ang ating kahapon

sana maulit muli

kung kaya kong umiwas na, di na sana aasa pa

kung kaya kong iwanan ka, di na sana lalapit pa

o giliw, o giliw ko

A Few Hours Is Better Than Never

2006-07-12T17:28:00.000-04:00

My midterm exam is officially over. Thank God! It wasn't that hard. It was basically all practical questions. He should have given us a different type of test 'cause we didn't focus on that kind of stuff. We were expecting na puro balance sheet, income statement and journals ang ibibigay nya. But unfortunately, neither one of them are on the test. Bullshit talaga!

Super miss ko na si Pao. We haven't seen each other for three days. Actually, sinundo nila si Czarina sa school kanina. But we didn't have the chance to talk 'cause nasa loob nga sha ng car nila. Sinasama ako Cza but sabi ko next time nalang. Nakakahiya nman kse dun sa Tita nya. Hope I can spend time with him tomorrow. I think he and his dad will be going back to work na kse they've been absent for 2 days. Naglilipat nga sa bagong house nila.

That I love you
I haved love you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long

I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go

- Far Away, Nickelback

Love you Pao.

Save Me

2006-07-10T17:59:00.000-04:00

Four days to go and another week of summer school is done. I can't wait 'til all the summer classes is over. I didn't expect that it's gonna be this HARD! And actually, it's getting HARDer and HARDer as the day goes by. I looove math, but I really wonder why I'm having a hard time to understand this freakin' Accouting. I mean, all you have to do is simply add and subtract numbers and make sure that both sides are balance. But I swear, when you start to read the questions magsisimula ka na rin pagpawisan ng malagkit! And everytime we're discussing a lesson, it seems like this is gonna be the last day of summer school. Like after 5-15 minutes of explaining this and that, ding! -- the whole chapter is done. Just like that. Seven chapters in 1 1/2 weeks. Can you believe that? The book we are using has 14 chapters in total. So I guess the remaning 1 1/2 weeks of school is for chapters 8 to 14. I don't know if I can still handle all this shit. But I'm expecting that there are more to come. Oh before I forgot, our midterm exam is on Wednesday -- I really don't know if I'm ready for that. SAVE ME!

T-A-K-E-N

2006-07-05T21:57:00.000-04:00

Status: In a Relationship

Suuuper in love kay Chester!

Love you kalbo! =)

07.05.06

Time Is Up!

2006-07-04T18:10:00.000-04:00

Bukas na.

Oo nga.

Bukas na talaga.

^_____^ -- *isang napakalaking smile*

Sunny Day

2006-07-03T22:15:00.000-04:00

Today is the start of summer school. I am taking the Accounting course at Cardinal Newman. So starting today until July 27th, 6 hours lang nman kme mags-stay ng school! Well atleast, aircon un rooms 'cause if not, we're gonna die sa sobrang init.

I went to Chester's place nga pla today. Sumabay ao umuwi kay Czarina. Miss ko na kse si kalbo. Ndi nga kme natuloy last Sunday kse nga he was helping Kate and her family sa paglilipat.

Wala talaga sa vocabulary ko ang mag nurse. Or any courses na related sa medical thingy. Eeewww... seriously, I really can't take it. Ndi na nga ako yun nagkasugat, pro ako ung hinang - hina. I hate it. =(

18 days left then summer school will be over. I can't wait!

It's nice to be back! Namiss ko tlga magblog! Eat muna ko ng dinner then sleep na. Byeee!

=)

2006-06-30T09:29:00.000-04:00

Wala ng mas sasaya pa kapag kasama kita. =)

Kahit na nainis ako syo dahil sa kalokohan mo, okay lang.

Napagalitan ka pa 'ata ni itay... sana nman nde.

Makikita ulet kita sa Sunday. Ndi na ko makapaghintay. Kung pwede lang araw-arawin...

In love ako? -- siguro nga.

Nakakinis Parin

2006-06-28T23:54:00.000-04:00

Namimiss kita... kaya nakakainis. =(

Wag ka talaga magpapakita sakin pag ndi ka kalbo.

Magingat sa trabaho. Sayang... wala ka bukas.

Miss Kita

2006-06-26T22:54:00.000-04:00

Wow... it's been a while eh!

Well, I have nothing much to say except -- miss ko si chester. sooobra. =(

I Could Not Ask For More - Edwin McCain

2006-04-16T23:05:00.000-04:00

lying here with you
listening to the rain
smiling just to see the smile upon your face
these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
these are the moments i'll remember all my life
i found all i've waited for
and i could not ask for more

looking in your eyes
seeing all i need
everything you are is everything to me
these are the moments
i know heaven must exist
these are the moments i know all i need is this
i have all i've waited for
and i could not ask for more

i could not ask for more than this time together
i could not ask for more than this time with you
every prayer has been answered
every dream i have's come true
and right here in this moment is right where i'm meant to be
here with you here with me

i could not ask for more than the love you give me
'cause it's all i've waited for
and I could not ask for more
i could not ask for more

Eternal Flame - MYMP

2006-04-11T21:55:00.000-04:00

close your eyes
give me your hand, darlin’
do you feel my heart beating
do you understand
do you feel the same
am i only dreaming
is this burning an eternal flame

i believe it’s meant to be, darlin’
i watch you when you are sleeping
you belong to me
do you feel the same
am i only dreaming
or is this burning an eternal flame

say my name
sun shines through the rain
a whole life so lonely
now come and ease the pain
i don't want to lose this feeling, ohhh..

** I'm happy on the way we treat each other. Because we don't have to force things to happened, they are coming out naturally and I like it that way! Hay Nikki... you never fail to make me smile! I can't wait to see you again tomorrow! =)

It's Not A Date

2006-03-29T23:00:00.000-05:00

We had the Literacy Test today. Okay lan nman eh, it’s not that hard. But there are a lot of writings to do. Eh I have to write big pa, kse I need to fill all the spaces provided para walang deduction sa points. I don’t want to fail the test and take it again next year. Hell no! After ng test, we still have to attend 3^rd and 4^th period.

I thought ndi matutuloy un pag skip nmen ni _____, ‘cause we were talking about it last night. Eh before kme mag log out, he told me that he wasn’t sure if he’s really going to skip or not. But luckily, natuloy. We ate lunch near ________. Everything went good. I mean, wala naman nailang. Well, duh? Bat may maiilang eh ndi nga date diba?! Parang nagkaayaan lan tlga ang dalawang tamad! Ahaha! =) But… I noticed something… and it made me think if… aaah… I don’t get it… I still don’t get it. I’m so confused right now. Bahala na… maybe I'm wrong... maybe he is not really like that... we'll see... =(

Love Hurts - Babyface

sometimes love can feel like
the closest thing to heaven
and sometimes love can feel like
you've been run over by a car
yes it can

it's the strangest thing i know
make you feel warm when you feel cold
and if you down on happiness
you better get used to the taste of sadness
'cause love can sure hurt sometimes

love hurts and it don't
love don't always work
love ain't all it seems
it feels good but it stings
love hurts and it don't

some people will tell you
it's the best thing for the heart
yes what they fail to tell ya
it can tear your life apart
but you know

it's as sweet as summer rain
but it can hit you like a train
fill your heart with pain
fill your heart with pain
ooh everybody sing, everybody sing

when you know that you're alive
'cause you feel so much
when you feel you can't survive
but you make it anyway
when it feels too good to stop
but it hurts too much to stay
then you know, yes you know
you gotta know love hurts
it hurts and it don't

It's Been A While

2006-03-25T20:58:00.000-05:00

Sige na nga, mag u-update na ko. Sobran dami nananyre this past few weeks. I don't know where to start anymore. So yeah... may pagkarandom 'tong post na 'to!

- Remember "Nikki"? Wala na... ndi ko na crush pro gwapo pa din sha for me!

- My shedule from Mcdo has been changed already: Every mon-wed-sat nalan ao magwowork per week. Unless may magbigay sken ng shift nya. I don't want to work on Sundays anymore 'cause I'm having less time doing my work from school and the next day is Monday, may pasok. Nakakapagod din noh! :(

- Everything's fine nman sa school. Kakabalik lan from March Break last week. And speaking of March Break, I had mine the worst! Ganito kse un... nag call-in sick ao nun Monday (March 13) but the truth is I'm not sick! I just I want to go out with my friends. Mag s-skating kme sa downtown. But the weather was not good, like it was raining the whole time so ndi natuloy. We played billiards instead. Then biglang sumama un pakiramdam ko. Ndi tuloy ao nkapaglaro. Kumain kme ng lunch sa Eaton. After dun, they wanted to go to Neil's place but ndi na ko sumama kse feeling ko tlga may sakit na ko. I'm supposed to sleep over Dinah's place pa nman that night. Ndi rin natuloy. So yeah... I spent my whole March break dito sa bahay. Good thing, Mae and Dinah visited me here! They bought me a shirt na pang gangster then Mae brought some tea too. Nag shopping dn pla kme ni ate and un na 'ata un pinkamasayang part ng March break ko! So next time, don't call-in sick if you're really not!

- Jhen's birthday. Yey, ate na na din sha! Dumadami kaming 18! Sobran saya! Feeling nmen Friday kse sobran late na kme umuwi. Naglaro pa kme sa labas- langit lupa, agawan base, taguan. Then dun nman sa loob nun apartment nila- pass the message, nanay-tatay, pizza-pizza! Haha, balik kme sa pagkabata! Andami pa nmen! Napuno un bahay nila Jhen!

- Mae had a problem with "commander" again, ahihi! :) Lumipad nanaman tuloy un utak. Buti nalan bumalik. Dapat dyan nilo-lock eh! You've been there Mae, and nalagpasan mo nman so sobran magtataka ao kun bat ndi mo maayos yan ngaun kun nagawa mo na shang ayusin before. You know what I'm sayin?! Basta if ever commander attacks again, don't do something stupid kse alam kong alam mo na ndi un ung solution, aight?!

- Dami kong shift this week! Holy... I'm working like there's no tomorrow again. Two days nalang, then I'm done. Eveything's back to normal next week. I can't wait 'til Thursday--sweldo! yay! :)

- I have a new reason to smile each day... this time it's for real. Hay... sana Monday na! :)

2 Years To Go

2006-03-10T23:54:00.000-05:00

One year na kme dito sa Canada today, ambilis nman. So yeah... we went to this Japanese restaurant and spend our whole night there. Kakatuwa 'cause ngayon lang kme lumabas na kaming 6 lang, ahehe! Sarap tlga nun feeling pag nagsspend ka ng time mo with your family, yay! I love it! =)

Last day na rin sa school today. March break na next week! I have a looot of time to rest 'cause for the last few weeks sooobrang pagod kse ko sa work and studies. I'm going to change my availability na nga eh. Papatangal ko na yun Sunday ko then yun Thursday papalipat ko ng Wednesday para makasali ako dun sa Kababayan thingy. Pag ndi nila inapprove... magqquit ako!

** Bawal. Wag makulet! Got that?! :(

True Love - Faith Evans

2006-03-08T19:49:00.000-05:00

some lines from the song:

when you say you need me like i need you
and you can't be without me
like i can't be without you
it's true love
when we spend time talking on the phone
'cause when we're not around each other, we don't want to be alone
it's true love, love, love, love
don't you know it's good to be in love, love, love, love
just believe me truthfully 'cause
love is never ever makin' you cry
before i tell you a lie
i'll give my life
'cause that's true love

now when the love is right
somehow you just know
because you hold it tight
and you don't want to let it go
and it's so deep inside of you that
you just can't take it 'cause it fills up your heart
and you just, you can't replace it alone

Too Much Drama

2006-03-06T21:55:00.000-05:00

Hay... sarap ng walang work! Sa Thursday pa yun next shift ko. So that means I have a lot of time to spend with my friends, homeworks and myself? -- kasi feeling ko bumabalik na naman yun moment na may sarili akong mundo. *scared* Then next week, March Break! woohoo! Fully book na nga ao eh, ahaha! Skating, chill sa kung kaninong house, and may sleep over pa! I can't wait!

I'm sooo happy about my last Math quiz! I got a perfect mark, woot woot! ;D Then yun chapter test namen last last week, I got a 95! Ang saya talaga, yay! I looove Math talaga, sobra! Ndi ako nagyayabang, proud lang!

I'm actually doing my homework in Biology right now but I can't concentrate eh so naisip kong magpost muna, ahihi! Mabilis lang 'to, ndi ko ksi alam kung bat ndi ako matahimik hangat ndi ako nakakagawa ng post eh.

I saw "Nikki" today. Wala lang... eveyday ko nman sha nakikita eh, except shempre pag weekends. So everyday din ako nagssmile, ahaha! =) <- smile ulet! Ang gulo naman. Malabo kse eh, ang lapit lapit mo na pero bakit parang ang layo layo mo parin? I'm too scared na i-try kang abutin kse pag nahulog ako alam kong ndi mo ko sasaluhin. So I won't let that happen nalang. Kaya habang ndi pa ko sanay, hindi na ikaw yun gagawin kong reason to smile everyday. Wala nalang... =(

"Nikki"

2006-03-03T23:53:00.000-05:00

March 3, 2006. Friday. One of the best days of my life.

I could not ask for more!

There are sooo many things to tell but I'll just keep it to myself for now, ahehe! :)

From now on your name is "Nikki".

Now there's a reason for me to smile each day. =)

Way You Make Me Feel - Selwyn

never imagined, something just happened
the first time that i saw you
i'm feeling indescribable
you're so desirable, and i ain't gonna lie to you

i've been trying to show you, i dont know how to tell you
but baby it's from my heart
something thats been there right from the start

it's the way you make me feel (i feel like flying)
it's the way you make me feel (something comes over me)
it's the way you make me feel (i feel this burning oh so real)
baby it's the way you make me feel

i got myself thinking, 'bout my decision
whether to let you know
~~i'm feeling that connection, same infatuation~~
i just got to let you know

i get weak in the knees, then i can't hardly speak
and i don't want to fall apart
it is something that was there from the start

i'll never do you wrong, thats why i sing my song
to let you know that i'll be there
'til the end, 'til the end, oh oh

i'm just feeling it, it's the way, it's the way
it's the way ~~my lady~~
i feel it for you and i baby
'cause it's the way you make me feel
yes the way that you making me feel

Smile! =D

2006-03-01T19:51:00.000-05:00

Sarap ngumiti... =) Ndi ko talaga mapigilan! Basta nalang ngumingiti magisa yun bibig ko! =) I don't even know kung meron bang dahilan or wala. Dapat meron, kse pag wala... kabaliwan na yun! Ahaha! =)

Aaah!!! This can't be happening. Ndi pedeng ganito... ndi talaga pede!
Kailangan matigil... pero ang totoo... ayaw kong itigil! =)

Bahala na nga... ngiti nalang ulet. =) At bukas alam kong mas lalo nanaman akong ngingiti. Sabay tawa pa... para lalong mas masaya... yay! =)

Sometimes pretending that the guy you like likes you too makes every day of hardship worthwhile! =D

Work-a-holic

2006-02-27T23:18:00.000-05:00

Before I go to bed I just a want to make a quick post.

For the past 3 days, I've been working like there's no tomorrow. I'm sooo tired. Holy... =(

But the good thing is I always make sure that I'm also doing my work at school. I'm so happy because so far my marks are all in good condition. Lol.! =)

Awkward... well actually it's not really... no... it is... oh man, I don't know! But atleast we're talking to each other and I noticed something today, I mean we've been together for like 3 months in the Orientation Centre and we also spent time together during the summer but I only noticed it today: He has brown eyes. That's all. =P

* I never saw true beauty til last Friday night! *blush*
Is this what they call "love at first sight"?! Hmmm... I kinda like the feeling... Can I just stare at your face forever? Oh my God... here we go again... smiling with no reason! =D

boy, it's time you know
what everybody knows
to say the words i feel
to tell you what is real
and let my feeling shows
the whole world knows it's true
i'm so in love with you...
baby look at me
and in my eyes you'll see
what everybody knows

- marc dorsey

Say That (You Don't Care) - DNH

2006-02-23T17:17:00.000-05:00

just when i'm feeling like we're getting closer
lady you turn around and drift apart
and now you've got me in a state of confusion
i just don't understand what we are
tell me girl exactly what it is that you doin'
i know you're feeling my company
but is that all i am to you
kicking back with someone new
is that all you want?

say that you don't care and i'll walk away
say that you don't give a damn and i won't stay
but if you feel the same way that i feel
girl you gotta show it
'cause girl i wanna know it

don't tell me you don't know the situation
girl i know you know what's goin' on
how we be chillin' all day
and making love all night
and still i sense that something is wrong
maybe there's a part of you that's scared and cautious
maybe you just don't feel the same
well whatever it could be
baby just be straight with me
what exactly is it you want?

what is it you feelin'? what is it you're needin'?
i know you know what's goin' on
so if you feel the same way that i feel
lady c'mon break it down
tell what is it you want

just tell me, tell me what you want
baby just tell me, tell me what you want
just tell me, tell me what you want...

Bad Trip!

2006-02-17T23:08:00.000-05:00

Nothing good happened today... and I mean N-O-T-H-I-N-G.

Hair
I thought I'm gonna be late for school 'cause 7:40 na, my hair is still wet. I have to dry it using the electric fan 'cause the hair dryer is broken nga. Can you imagine how cold I am while drying my hair in front of the fan?! So I just wrapped my blanket around me too keep my body warm, ahaha, silly girl! =)

Bus
One more stop, school na-- yes! I'm not late! But yun stop before that, a lot of people wants to get in the bus. The bus was kinda full na because of the students, eh they didn't want to move at the back so yun mga tao sa stop couldn't get in. What the bus driver did is he turned off the engine and he will not start it unless the people move back. After 2 to 5 minutes, everybody was able to get in the bus.

Ouch!
Holy... this is the first time na nanyare sakin 'to since the winter started! Guess what?! Nadulas ako when I was walking papasok sa school. I don't know if a lot of people saw it but whatever! Ansakit kaya as in! Holy shit talaga! I swear! =(

Math Quiz
It was a piece of cake. Kala ko pa nman kung gaano na kahirap. But except for that one question. I saw that in the book but I can't remember the solution. Tang*na talaga! That question was worth 2 points! Eh medyo connected pa 'ata yun question na yun sa next. But I got the right answer nman dun sa next question, ndi ko lang alam kung i-co-consider. Well, I hope so.

It's 2 not 1.
Our teacher told us the other day na 1 yun uwian sa Friday. But after Oh Canada, the VP announced our schedule and 2 daw yun dismissal.

Dinah
During lunch, I called Mae to tell her that my dismissal time is not 1 o'clock anymore. So okay na... then nung nasa Kennedy Sation na ko, nakita ko si Mae. Kala ko ba Warden Station?! Kung ndi ko sha nakita dun, malamang nagaantay ako sa wala sa Warden. They told me na ndi na daw matutuloy na downtown kse my youth si Dinah! Leche! =( Ikaw yun nagplan then ikaw din pala yun ndi pede magstay ng matagal! What the hell?! Pro okay lang... bsta nagspend tyo ng time together, okay na rin. I don't hate you anymore, lover. But I don't love you either. Bwahaha! ;D

Dare
After sa STC, we went to Ella's house. Nagchill lang kse si Kaze ngaun nalang ulet nakasama. So kahit na masakit na yun paa ko 'cause of the accident that morning, sumama pa din ako. Nagplay kme ng cards- 1, 2, 3 pass. Pag natalo, may gagawin kang dare. Eh natalo ko, lagot! Gusto nila sayaw daw ako ng My Humps. Ulol, ndi na noh! Una sa lahat, ayaw ko ng sayaw, eeew! And pangalawa... no humps, no humps, no humps no humps no humps! Bwahahaha! =) They made me drink one shot of vinegar instead! Nakakaisang lunok pa lang ako, nasuka na ko sa trash can ni Ella, sorry! Eeew... it was so nasty! as in! =/

After 7 months, 2 weeks and 2 days...

2006-02-15T16:28:00.000-05:00

I'm late. In the hallway. Morning prayer.

A guy put his arm around my shoulders... who could that be?!

M: hey! oh my God!
A: hey, how you doin'?
M: good. how you doin'?
A: good!
A: you're so red.
M: it's cold outside (hmm... is it really?!), you're late.
A: you're late!
M: what's your first class?
A: family studies. (not zoology)
M: eew! (and it's not really eew!)
A: you have biology.
M: yeah, eew!
M: how come you're late? you live like, right there!
A: 'cause i came from other place.
M: oh that's why.
M: okay see yah!
A: see yah girl!

Happy Hearts Day!

2006-02-14T19:16:00.000-05:00

I went to Warden Station after school to meet up with Mae and Dinah. Nagplan kase na magchill with Camille and friends. But then, there was a sudden change of plans because Camille and friends went to Yorkdale instead. Medyo magulo kaya I'm not gonna explain it anymore.

So we went to Mcdonalds nalang 'cause Dinah is working. Senti mode pa 'tong si Dinah because of "thing" ("thing" 's name is not allowed in this blog). Mae is gonna wait for Dinah until matapos yun shift nya, since kailangan ko na umuwi, sumama sha dito sa bahay-- sabi ko naman syo Maepot eh, gubat ang bahay namin! Pinagusapan nmen yun about sa school ko, oo na, ako na yun tatanga-tanga! Eh ano ba nman kse malay ko dun sa mga codes na yun! Andami pang arte! =) We did our homeworks together-- nerds! Ehehe! I'm so proud of you Maepot 'cause ndi ka pa nagsskip since the school started and also my lover Dinah. Keep it up okay?! Susumbong kta kay Ms.Weir (spelling?) kpag nagskip ka ng khit na anong period Mae, bwahahaha (evil laugh)!.

Oh, one more thing... thanks dun sa card Maepot, that is sooo freakin' true! ;D

Happy Valentine's Day to all! Spread the loooooooooove! =P

Be The One - Tony Rich Project

2006-02-09T22:11:00.000-05:00

i should be the one...

i can think of nothing better
than to know the one you love
for as long as we've been together
we should open up my heart yeah

if i gave you my heart
would you be the one that i love
if i told you my feelings
eould you be the one that i trust
would you make sure everything's fine
would you hold me close tonight
would you be the one that i love
will you hold me tonight

i feel like breaking down the walls
welcome you into my world
i'm not afraid of what you find in me
j just want us to be closer, yeah

confide in me, tell me all your fears
i wanna be, the one that you depend on
to share a dream, forget about the
hard times that we'll face
let's go all the way

Wherever You Go - Voices of Theory

2006-02-09T22:10:00.000-05:00

since you left me, my life ain’t been the same
i’m useless without your love
i’m calling, crying out your name
when I look around
your love is nowhere to be found
please come back to me
you know you’re my everything
who will love me?
who will care?
who will be there when i need someone for me?
who will be there to dry my eyes when i go down on my knees?
i need you to say

wherever you go
whatever you do
you know i’m waiting
you know i’ll never leave
whatever it takes
whatever’s at stake
just know i love you
and that i’ll be right here
and no matter what it takes
i’ll be waiting here for you always

goodbye is such a hard thing to say
when you walk out on all
when you’re my everything
and who will stay and care for me
when you’re gone i’ll be all alone
who will go and comfort me
and fulfill my needs
who will love me?
who will care?
who will be there when I need someone for me?
who will be there to dry my eyes when I go down on my knees?
i need you to say

all my life i’ve waited for someone like you
so please don’t say it’s over
don’t tell me--this just can’t be true
please don’t leave me
don’t walk away
you know your love is something i can’t do without
so whatever it takes or how my heart aches
you know i’ll always be around

I Miss Them Already! :(

2006-02-07T20:23:00.000-05:00

I'm so happy! I chilled with Mae and Dinah today at their Mcdonalds! I miss them so much! :( Eventhough I'm already with them, I still miss them! Ahaha, weird! =) I'm so happy to see you guys! Mr. Dean and Kuya Paul, Jasmine, Camille, Clause and Ryan was also there. We talked about a lot of things like love, relationships, when is the right time to say I love you, lol! and those random questions about everyone's love life! It was so funny and was really fun!

I met new friends at school today. There are a lot of new Filipino students like me, but their case is not like mine. I mean, they didn't transfer from another school, they just came here in Canada. So yeah... it was really nice to meet them.

I have three assignments to do tonight so I better start doing them now if I want to sleep early! See yah! ;D

First Day

2006-02-06T22:46:00.000-05:00

First day of school was okay. It's not that bad with all those "itim" people around, they're not that scary. =) The people there are nice like some of them are really friendly and they can all notice right away that I'm new. And before I forgot, that school is freakin' huge! I swear! I saw everybody today. This morining, I saw Arvin at the station so we went to school together and he took me to my first class- Biology (eeew!). Thank God, 'cause without him, I'm gonna get lost and be late for my first period. Then I saw Nathan, Riza, Kim and Deny and Laura- Spanish girl from the OC.

** When I was on my way to 4th period class I saw... her. Though I haven't seen her in my whole life, only in pictures, I can tell that she's the girl and oh my God! she's pretty! So when the class ends, I saw her again... with him. After 7 months, I finally saw him again. But he didn't noticed me because he was with his friend and that's okay.

After school, I went to work. The restaurant was so dead! Like there's no people, actually there is but they are only like 4 to 7 people eating and there is also no cars in the drive thru. So it was really boring.

Something unexpected happened today. But I don't feel like sharing it with you guys, sorry! I don't know what to do or should I do something about it? Think Marie, think... hay... whatever. :(

Only Wanna Be With You - Rozwell

2006-02-01T23:20:00.000-05:00

i dont know what you do to me
i see eternity staring back at me
i made a vow to you that im gona keep
like watching over you everytime you sleep
when i think about what i do for you
it makes me think about all the things you do
you never once complained about the bad things
you swallowed all your pride there inside and all of your pain

i only wanna be with you
from now i need you to need me too
no one will come between me and you
(never) we'll live our lives forever
we'll even cry together
forever and ever and ever

tell me all the things that will make u smile
i see that diamond rings are really not your style
i know your breaking rules when it comes to loving you
i know its hard to chose the one you give your loving to
people ask you why in what you see in me
a smile is your reply and say its meant to be
thats what i love about you
you give me all of you
the only one in this whole world i'd give my love to

It's NOT Even FUNNY

2006-01-30T22:56:00.000-05:00

The title tells it all...

But I might edit this post if this laziness will leave me alone...

** You have no chance buddy! No chance at all! It's all your fault. Ahaha, too bad for you!

Ooops... that is sooo wrong! =)

Okay... it's time to stop now... I better not write a single word anymore!